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Thursday, April 13th, 2006
2:39 pm	continued to copy cat : P i just put three of each sept 18 facts: 1830 - A horse beats the first U.S.-made locomotive near Baltimore. 1928 - Walt Disney's "Mickey Mouse" trademark application is granted. 1947 - The United States Air Force is created separate from the United States Army. births: 1765 - Pope Gregory XVI 1933 - Jimmie Rodgers, American singer and composer 1971 - Lance Armstrong, American cyclist deaths: 1970 - Jimi Hendrix dies of a sleeping pill overdose. 1180 - King Louis VII of France 1964 - Sean O'Casey, Irish writer and holidays .... non that im familar with !! lol (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
3:21 pm	bewildered i talk about stupid shit ................ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 20th, 2006
9:25 pm	vacant, arent we all? you ever walk around and your mildly busy with something thats not really that important? then it hits you , im not thinking about anything at all... my mind is completely blank. i believe this fact has caught me by surprise one time to many, and i ponder... could it be for a legitimate reason? one of two reliable theories..... either your entirly to stressed or you had the most incredible sex of your life... j/k we all think that after 91% of the time we even get to have sex im sure... so the second untarnished theory is maybe we have gotten in touch with our inner sub consioucs "sp" see now that point could be fucken cool cause that would mean we could do anything , anything at all, everything we could never do before. is it really possible to effectivly learn to vacate all thinking ... and whistle underwater? break weather and fire resistant wood with a punch "for those of us who havent trained for that skill" to control a dream to the fullest extent, breath in tear gas without choking? could we do these things as a everyday normal person if all we had to master was one single skill, to vacate our minds. i hear the sumo wrestlers do it, and people who meditate... it cant be all that hard. now i believe my power to vacate my mind so frequently is mere stress, i can control my dreams, but they are night terros. i can break wood , outta etreme anger and the will to break something regardless of pain. i could never whistle my whole life and one time i made the perfect longest pure whislte with a steady note, my mother was yelling at me to stop i didnt hear her, i had no clue i could whistle, i had been wanting to for ever, and all the sudden she came right over and smacked me in the head.lmao go figure , i never could figure out why she smacked me till she told me the next day. i was so zonked out!!! i can breath tear gas , i channel it somewheres else, where i dont know... my eyes get teary and my nose runny but to me after the first time i breathed it, i simply compared it to onions... which to me are worse and im a freakin cook! so i guess the real question here with this stressed subconcious energy and then the good kind, is there a way to mesh them together perhaps and become something really great.....??? or am i just reading into this to much ... on the other hand, its hard to really find a good example of things people can not do, for the fact that anyone can do so much. my point is i want to do it all at once, the power of my mind to calm the fuck down and over come anything i want to... thats so much greater than training your whole life for one feat. i dont mean to sound lazy but im trying to point out the greater picture. how far can you really take your true mind and exercise it graciously at will! if its a crock of bull to yall, send hate mail... lol (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
12:19 pm	im so sorry livejournal friends!! you guys have been pretty posting crazy since ive been gone. so much going on with all of you. well i found this thing called myspace and ive been there consistently working on my last livejournal post, if youll take a quick look back. but there are some really good groups there that ive been a major participant in and we've cleared some hurdles here at home and in my head. so im really sorry , i feel ive not been submitting to livejournal as often as ive liked. so that being said...... if any of you want to add me as a friend if you have myspace, this is my id number 43151969 or type in my email. that way yall can see pics and stuff on my profile. Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
10:37 am	blues clues im becoming obsessivly fanatic about food again, thats a dangerous time for me.ive been fearing it more and more everyday these past weeks and today the last straw.i dont know what happened but i did not sleep last night because i all the sudden was obsessed.it started when i was cleaning the crap outta my kitchen for apparently no reason. this is second time this has happened to me and i was supposed to be all better.im back to counting every single ounce of everything going into my body, the caloric content, carbs, vitamins, weight. i can sit here and talk about it but i can not just stop feeling the way i feel all the sudden. the first time this happend it lasted for a year.i dont know how long this will last but im sure its going to be longer because im here with the be beautiful standards in hawaii.shit im in a pickle i cant get out of. the worst thing in the world is being stuck inside your own head no matter what people tell you. it such a consuming feeling but at the same time i feel relieved to be obsessed about what i know most about. its like a little safe hole for me to crawl in and hide. so i dont know why i wrote that but its a journal right? about blues clues, i seriously think that guy is alittle off! im kinda touchy about caleb watching it if it werent for the little dog........... Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 25th, 2006
7:37 pm	success!!!!!!!!!!! today i finished my tomatoe planting. they are looking so little in that big lot of dirt i planted them in. i sifted all the dirt and mixed the the new bought soil in with the dirt i picked through. at least they look healthy. im going to let them get real big and then ill start my next batch of babies "veggies" today im drinking molson ice. canadian beer, the molson xxx is extremly sweet and it contains about 7.3 percent alcohol. so when you say honey i only had 4 beers then of corse he will wonder "then why on the earth are you stumbling around slurring your words?" if he doesnt know molson xxx................ ha ive only seen them sold in vermont so far. comes in a black case. it looks forbidding...trust me it is. the average beer only contains 5.9 at the most. and thats if you consider natural ice. yucko!!!!! so i watched saw 2 yesterday. the girl in the needle scene really impressed me, thats exactly what i would have done, she was crazy, gotta go write more later (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
2:36 pm	quick update today i feel wronged. there are incidents exhisting behind my back , and blatant disrespect. i feel i have to build up a defense wall in my own home. everything i say is disregarded and not appreciated as shared thoughts.things are being hidden from me, and lied about. i feel as im nothing cause of these issues and im very unhappy.so off that morbid lifeless subject. my tomatoes are growing so big now, ive begun to excavate my yard.i got little white picket fences im going to put up around them. i made some hamburger helper today and me and marc made homemade pizza from scratch together last night.chicken barbeque. it was perfect. a neighbor got home today from a few weeks vacation and first thing he saw me outside yelled across 3 yards and says "hi brandy" jumping up and down and waving, i waved back. then next thing i know hes trotting over and talking to me about stuff while im cleaning my yard. hes selling me his lawn mower and everything else for 75 bucks, we really need it.i was alittle overwhelmed.i stay in my house everyday and hide from people. not cause im anti social but because i have so much to do with my animals and chores and toddlers, plus normal business like mailing things paying bills online.fighting with the dmv. the point is i get so caught up i forget others exhist, when im placed in a situation like that i tend to bury my thoughts in wether or not i need to buy a different soil for my corn or is the one i have fine, or if i need 2 packets of yeast for 3 cups flour, im sure one will do fine, remeber not to add honey cause it kills yeast, that sort of thing, so im never really lisiting to a person or visiting well, because i cant pay fucken attention! lol so i find drinking helps me pay attention. so i dont talk or visit people unless ive been drinking alittle. so jake overwhelmed me when he came over without a moments notice. i was polite and continued to pick toys outta the yard, hes such a loud guy its really really hard to not pay attention to him. dont some people just bore you , not this guy , i really dislike someone with no life, even after you try to spruce them up, the best people are the kind that need no sprucing. you find yourself lacking around them,like you dont have enough life! i feel im the kind of person that thrives off that sort of feeling, it makes me louder more obnoxious and laugh harder. jake is the kind that defintly does NOT need sprucing.lol its nice to exploit someones character when you are a bit of a fan. freshens the day, kinda makes you want to be that person today. netflix is coming in with 3 new movies today, i checked my mailbox 4 times allready waiting for them. and today i got a docters appointment, i was fine when i made the appointment yesterday but today ive got butterflys and im anxious to cancel but marc would kill me. i hate the docter and im so freakin nervous i could shit my pants. i feel and hurt my ankle a couple of weeks ago and it still is painful sometimes especially if im running around on it all day. i was worried cause it feels as it snaps outta joint sometimes when im walking and then i just fall down sideways. i didnt think it was normal but then i been falling down my whole life! so we will see, p.s. you dudes and dudetts have absolutly no comments for my journals at all ??? send me a hiya or something . i feel bored the only emails i get from anyone are freaking forwards!! no pressure! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
2:59 pm	the weekend and planting there are phone calls to be made, addresses to write, so much stuff stuff stuff. but instead i vacumned today, i still havent finished painting my kitchen brite yellow. i need to do that so i can get the green for the bedroom and do that. marc has decided to garage queen his camaro for a while, good thing, i feel stuck up riding in it but.... its really not very comfortable ride, ill be glad to downsize back to our hyndai elantra, it still needs tires.its comfortable and easy to park and the trunk is alot bigger. hey who ever said go carts arent fun, i love my little hyndai, i like zipping around in it. stupid thing, lol. i havent had much to say the past few days, i been really family focused this past 2 weeks.its nice. we had a great weekend , went to the aloha tower marketplace and to the pier 7 for the fishing and sail "i guess" museam. i saw a cruise liner close up, never been on one, and humpback whale skeleton. local hawain dancers, and hooters girls "everyone likes to see them" i walked around on this old sailboat that is sinking for sure and they are trying to keep it afloat.lol. donations are greatly appreciated at the peir 7 museam. if you look over the side there is a bunch of colorful exotic looking fish , all different kinds swimming around every where. i mean alot, and they were the highlight of the day. then we went to tony romas for dinner and my son caleb got all these looks and smiles from all the ladies, "oh hes so cute" they say and keep staring over at our table the whole meal. hes not even 2 and hes a ladykiller.i think saturday we spent the whole day outside at our little park here in housing and caleb played in his baby pool with the dog for a long time. he slept really good that night. i planted my tomatoes, itll take 12 days and they hopefully sprout and then i can transplant them to the garden.im gonna start my corn last cause i have to put it in a different area.my ivys are getting bigger and i now have 6 ivys. every time i go to the garden store i pick up a new one or 2 little ones.i guess when i leave the island in a couple of years i will sell them back to the store. they will be longer and ill get more money then what i paid.i hate leaving my plants behind. friday i think all i did was watch a movie and drink some margaritas. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
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Monday, January 30th, 2006
2:46 pm	todays interest none------------- thats right you heard it ... no cynical or hypocritic commentaries in my journal today. not feeling the vibe. but simply will say what im feeling. indifferent. i had some tomatoe soup, i have quite the obsession with tomatoes lately. im not thinking about cars, im not thinking about cleaning my kitchen, im not thinking about cooking, not thinking about sex, no television, dont feel like smoking ciggarettes. im thinking about growing a garden of tomatoe plants, they smell so good. i love the green and the red and the juice that just bursts out from the freshest bite. im planning to grow a garden, im going to need a shovel and maybe a hoe.ive got my seeds and soil.i love the life and color in a garden, it will make me say every morning as i go out to water it , my its a beautiful day today. just because it smells good and its colorful and freshly spritzed with sun kissed water droplets or perhaps dew. i just hope my dog doesnt knock it down.lol.its three in the p.m. im feeling tired.it takes me a long time to get out of bed in the morning, maybe a garden will help. ive also planned a new exercise regime for the 1st of the month. ive set rewards for myself at the end of every month. big rewards.but i think the most fruitfull reward will be more energy, better sleep, a happier dog, and i can go shopping for new clothes in my own damn closet! i havemt seen half of them in a while. i got alot of nice and stylish things but ive been demoted to t shirts and blue jeans.well i think my husband will come home in 1 hour and i shall take a nap with my son. im so tired.its a very lazy day.but its windy, i like it when its windy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
6:00 pm	croutons you ever diet? damn its hard , i swear i must burn 500 calories just trying to get a crouton on my damn fork. do you think dieting is expensive, ill tell you it is, pay for the dentristy bills that concern taking a bite outta that very same crouton. or the lawsuit against you when your crouton flys off your plate and puts out someones eye. then they go and sell them in stores for like oh lets say 4 dollars a box. yeah i feel healthy buying the box, but then no wonder im losing weight by buying them. i cant eat a fucken thing for about a week untill my teeth are better. or i cant afford food cause im paying for the lawsuit. so my theory, i will always have a fresh box of croutons in my cupboard as long as i got that extra 5 pounds to lose! and more than likely teeth that been worked on so much that im flashing my million dollar dentures like all the rest of these t.v. stars. (you didnt really think those babies were real ?) Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
7:28 am	drinking well its 730 am, why am i up? my hubby is late for work and he goes out the door, ten minutes pass and i never hear his car start, so i get up to look out the window to see if he had left and hes under the hood in his navy uniform messing with the carburator.i went outside and i asked him what happened and he proceeds to give me a huffy i dont know.dang hes allready late for work and the car wont start so i dont think his day will go well , to bad i made his fav dinner last night,but today is friday right? some reason i cant get this week straightend out in my head.probably cause i got drunk 2 nights this week and i lost some time, my sister calls me , shes having a lunchtime beer allready and i was gonna have one with her but its so damn early.you know like rich women have a cocktail in a fancy restaurant at luncheon with other rich women, well im country we have a beer and call each other.its just a given , and when you got hangovers make sure you pour yourself a redeye in the morn, i swear it kills the hangover.they also say to take fish oil before you start.now they make hangover pills. come on , the reason you feel like shit and your piss is cloudy yellow brown is because ding ding ding........your dehydrated. drink some water fools and foolettes. i dont know maybe those pills work , i can drink a gallon of water in a day and i have and i still feel like crap the whole day and half the night till i fall asleep. surprisingly i did not drink new years, good thing. i met this new neighbor next door and i drank with her a few times, shes fun, i like her alot. well im back to bed, im tired still Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
3:35 pm	spam in a can and my thoughts on "ha-va-e " hawaii Hawaii loves spam, there are mad coupons for it in every advertisement, its like 3 dollars a can , dang I bought it for 99 cents in California and a dollar store.Mcdonalds serves it with rice and eggs in this neat little breakfast platter.I used to eat it with breakfast, only sometimes cause I like the salt. Remeber that movie 50 FIRST DATES. I thought they were kidding but now I see why they made such a comedic moment about it , lol, its insane , the reeses thing they took to far.Thats not bad. The coffee here is so yummy, "sorry for those who dont like coffee ;) " anyways and tons of those chocolates and macadamias . Wyland art is like 2000 dollars for a freaking coffee cup with a dolphin on it, but it is crediably beautiful and if I was rich, yeah id buy that 2000 dollar coffee cup for my expensive coffee habit! Literally, expensive....lol, I crack myself up, anyway I got geckos "not geico" running around my house getting in my shoes and taking showers with me, lol sorry im being silly again, really not that many geckos but they do make their presence known. the palm trees are real and they even got real coconuts, not like the stupid ones in california.Nobody cuts their grass around here, in some places they dont have grass, makes me feel safe about not cutting mine, its all cement. Some streets I dont have room to drive , and all the exits look like your gonna crash into everybody. Every one is always going to the same exact place at 5 oclock so, no matter what, roll your window down and wave at the same guy you been driving next to for the past hour. Put your car in park and share some sandwhiches with the guy, hell your gonna be driving next to him again tommorow, at least youll have a driving friend. When the traffic starts up again, be sure that you are in the right lane to make that 2 hour destination that only takes you five minutes at 3 in the morning. Who goes anywhere at 3 in the morning? Well I do , thats when I go to the grocery store, park and wait for it to open so I get there safely and I dont waste gas. I wouldnt trade it for anything, I love it here, besides you can catch lots of people doing gross things in their cars. They pick their noses, dance around like idots or flick me off for laughing at them and pointing cause they just plain look funny. I mean think about it, its hilarious, I know Im being to critical, but its so damn funny. ... I have yet to see those brown skinned men dressed in scant leafy atire running around at 630 pm, lighting torches and stuff. Maybe they are to dark to see at night? Maybe they run to fast? Or maybe I cant make it through traffic to get there in time !!! By the time I hit Wakiki the torches are all lit. Fast buggers, man I tell ya. There are so many tourists, every stop sign you come to... wait at least ten minutes for every one to cross, even at 3 in the morning anywhere on the island. Shit even at kmart- the tourists are at kmart! How did they get there? Aint like they never seen one before! I honk my horn and tell them to get outta the way, waving my hands in the air at them and stuff. They look at me and point, "look every one shes doing the volcano dance in her car" " wow (they gather around my car, whisper about me ) " I dont know, is that what the locals here do? No way , thats to stupid , locals here are awesome, tourists are dumb. So I just yell at them to get the heck outta my way so's I can park and go buy some diapers for my kid! lol- I wonder how they get so far away from the cruise liners that line our beaches. Everyone here can surf, what can I do? Im tweedling my thumbs, lightbulb clicks, hey ive got it ! I can...........do cartwheels! Im scared of the ocean, every time I go near the water , I get my back thrown out by waves, drown, carried out to sea, get bitten by something unidentifiable, and Im not kidding about that, Im serious! The ocean scares me, but thanks to those surfers , my life is saved over and over again. So yeah, Im gonna get a surfboard and mount it on my wall as a monument. But ill never surf. Thank you ladies and gentlemen, comedy hour is over enjoy your cocktails and dinner. This is saturdaybliss signing out! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:11 pm	my little boy, my hubbys grocery getting camaro, and my corvette and me (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
3:03 pm	its been years wow i cant believe this thing still exhists, here goes, last entry 2001, next entry 2006, i think ive done alot of growing up since then, alot to say, well i have a dog, his name is loki and hes a dalmation, i have a holland lop bunny the color of my carpet so its hard to find him sometimes, his name is booger, i love to race i own a 1984 corvette and 72 camaro, well the camaro is share and share alike for i am married, again ! i finished the navy, made alot of money and had a kid named caleb, i still remeber everyones names from school and what i wore. im older im hotter and im definitly having fun in hawaii, my hubbys out golfing today in kaneohe bay oahu island. its beautiful and im stuck here for 3 years.christmas and new years was good , nothing happened really except the locals here LOVE to light off fire works all day for new years, i mean all day! i never seen everyone so excited about it, i always thought its a huge boozefest for one night you know, and the next day nothing but quiet as the city sleeps in agony swearing they will never drink again ! i wasnt going to be in that trap so i had few drinks and spent the next day shopping and shopping as there was no traffic and plenty of up front parking, and no one ran me over or got in my way, as a matter of fact i was the first at every check out line! thats whats great about new years, cant wait till next year im allready saving up! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 9th, 2002
8:04 pm	im a official sailor now! well i finished boot camp.i came home to lynchburg in december and now i need some friends,please write to me.i miss you all.ask me lots of questions.ive been keeping up to date and reading all your journals and everybody has been so different now.i get married in march and i have a beautiful dress.i dont smoke so much anymore.wow!please everyone write to me if possible.i miss you all.my addy is sa parker psc 7 1001 gemini dr unit 390119 lackland afb, tx 78236-6001. thank you all i love and miss you. brandy (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 2nd, 2001
4:25 pm	be one with nature well.hello.i saw a beautiful rabbit yesterday and he came to me in my yard.then he sat with me while i smoked and cig,while he ate i sang him a song.lol.im going crazy but i got up and left and then he waited till i walked inside and as i turned around to look and see him again he hopped of into someone elses yard.lol.never saw such a thing in my life.this was definitly a wild rabbit.it was a symbol of no fear.i think it was meant for me like this.im real scared about my navy career and all and im not sure i can pull through.the only support i really have is my own and jims.but i think the rabbit was a symbol to me as in "have cautious fear but be curious and hopefull." that was it.everything will be ok.im ready to start my new life now and i need a strong will that i dont have but im sure i feel alot better about my meeting with mr rabbit.lol.i heard crickets were good luck.not a thousand but one.i opened my door yesterday and the cricket came in with a puff of wind.hehehe.that was awful cute.he jumped around my kitchen floor and went back out the door.i didnt think he could make that much noise.such a small thing ina big world can make a big diference in a persons life.so now i have 3 essentials for living as a new person. luck love cautious but curious fears and thats all i have now but as i go on i might be able to gain more that that.im going nuts but now im taking things for real not for granted.i have learned to appreciate crickets and rabbits.lol.and most of all myself Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 18th, 2001
12:14 pm	wow i am here and ive finally come to my senses.ive relized that everyone was a wonderful friend to me in school and i really miss you guys.im working on a letter for nao and its hard to pickout the things i want to say.i have fun every weekend and i heard about erins accomplishment.(good job!!!!) any how my best wishes to everyone and yes i understand we are all growing up but guys never ever never grow apart.cherish all the "im sorry i forgot to call" because in the furture you might never hear that at all.allways miss the look on your best friends face when you say "i am going on a trip for a week".because she/he will miss you and you know it.even if its for week.always sing a dumb song everyday.itll lift the spirits.never brush your hair on the weekends...... who do you really really have to impress!and never take your eyes off the one you love.if you have to then daydream. love and good wishes for all (Comment on this)
Friday, June 22nd, 2001
2:51 pm	none well so far ive had an interesting summer and i just found out that i must attend summer school.thats just a fuck up but i can do it.hows erin im happy to hear shes with verity.id love to meet her.i already miss nao and i couldnt make her stay in the states.but we,ll all come visit her.gotta go but im still alive.(i think) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 6th, 2001
8:48 am	i think im going crazy or catching senioritis or something.ive been real snappy with everybody and i still feel snappy.and erin no i did not say that no one likes me because thats a little to self concieted.i just meant to say to everybody that im a bit cranky and annoyed with everyone.again i am mistaken but thats allright because i forgot about that dumb party in 6th today.i might bring something tommorow.i would like to come to naos party........ive got papers upon papers due and im am a little confused about my relationship at home.but i honestly think that i just went through a dry spell with jim.but everything is picked up since prom.i thought he looked wonderful and i was very proud to show him to nao and erin.lol.god knows what they thought but im sure it was a funny issue.owell i have no clue Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)